Wednesday, 28 December 2016

Legacy And The Facts

As my health declines and I face the final curtain like most people I think about my Legacy ... it is very important as when you die you became a `easy target` for people who want to destroy your reputation and spread lies.

I have tried my best to put everything on-the-record before I die ... I have my book Punk Rock Stories And Tabloid Tales ... blogs and FB pages called The Punk Poet , Dead Men Cant Talk ... and so many others I cant remember the titles ... but if you Google GARRY JOHNSON PUNK POET , or Gangster Of Slang you will be able to find them.

I was reminded on Boxing Day of why a Legacy is so important... I was given Facts I would have gone to my grave without knowing.

My mum revealed why I hadnt heard from my daughter saying "you never will" adding "she has no feelings for you".

I replied she was `wrong` and insisted that one day it would happen ... then she dropped a bombshell and told me the following facts.

She had actually spoken to my daughter - I was really shocked as I`d been led to believe that as with my X - there had been no contact since 2008.

This was not true.

Until Boxing Day I had no idea of `secret talks

In 2013 my mum contacted my X ... told her I was on a life support machine and close to death ... asking that my daughter be informed.

She refused.

When I came out of the 29 day coma - my mum asked my X if my daughter could visit me - my X refused.

As I recovered and started asking to see my daughter ... my mum asked for a third time ... and again my X refused ... adding:

"She doesnt want to see her dad and has no feelings for him"

I should have been told this in 2013.

Until Boxing Day I always thought my daughter didnt want to see me because of the lies and brainwashing of my X, the taylors and ginger prevost ... I had no idea she had personally disowned me.


This explains why she didnt respond to the letter from the Hospital Chaplin, or the other one posted by a nurse.

Before Boxing Day I thought they had been kept from her , but maybe she did read them and chose to ignore them.

I have always tried to be positive and thought maybe she didnt know about how many times I went to Courts all over Essex and London to fight for the right to see her.

The stress of fighting to see her leading to five heart attacks and two prison sentences.

I aint complaining as I `d do the same again ... I fought with every fibre of my body ... and I know all the mums who helped me with Sam & Adam ... (Diane P, Justine S, Kelly B, Jodie P, Samantha J, Karen H )
will all confirm I was like a dog with a bone , taking on and beating both the establishment and death.

All those mums that helped me , who cooked them food, kept them safe , gave them beds and places to sleep , as with my mates and advisers all said "when she`s 16 she will come and find you".

Those words kept me going ... but she never came looking ... which is why I backed off in October ... I still blamed my X and the taylors for brainwashing her against me ... as before Boxing Day I didnt know about those conversations from Xmas 2013.

To be honest ... I aint sure if telling me was the right thing ... except to say ... It will mean I go to my grave knowing the truth ... that is important ... as I know my dad knew the truth and what I thought about him ... my last words to that nasty bastard who walked out on me as a kid were "Fuck off you cunt".

Getting that off my chest was very important..